Choice and Responsibility

As I peruse one of my fave celebrity blogs CONCRETELOOP , I find the pictures Ive been searching for. Pictures of Usher Raymond V!!! He is a cutie, Im glad he doesnt appear to have that God forsaking nose!! During his interview with hottie Hill Harper( whom I heard is dating Gabrielle Union) for this months Essence Mag. Usher speaks about how becoming a father and a husband has changed his life. Speaking about his son, "Because now I represent what he is to become. He’s gonna admire me, he’s gonna look up to me. He’s gonna say, “I wanna be”—or he should say— “I wanna be like my father. I wanna be a man of valor. I wanna possess what my father has as a man.” To get married was a choice. To have a child is a responsibility." How could you deny a man that takes responsibility, stepping to the plate for his child.

And then you have my father. A man who begged to have a child because, out of him and his 4 other brothers, he was the only one to not have any children. Then here I come... In the beginning, I was the sparkle of his eye. He would show me off to any and everybody that cared or not. At the age of six my mother decided to move from Omaha, NE to the east coast of VA Beach, in hopes of finding better opportunity and a chance to find someone other than my dad who proved not to be one for commitment ..and there he went, out of my mothers life and mine too. Not to mention I went to visit Nebraska every summer. But here it is almost 19 years since and he has not proved to be the father that it looks like Usher has become in the last 9 months. THAT IS SAD...Lets not mention that since me, my dad has helped conceive 4 other children, whom live with him but he still proves to be a sucky father to them too.
Its so pathetic, I talk so much shyt about how much I hate my dad for not being there for me, but once he is in my presence I swear I melt and become this daddy's girl. Lately, I have become less enthused and naive to his lies and empty promises. But all the same, if he were to turn around a complete 180...I would welcome him with open arms.
I only hope to find a MAN that will be a real father to my future children, I refuse to continue this cycle.

NOTE TO ALL FUTURE FATHERS...dont fall victim to this revolving cycle. Commit to your responsibility...when you CHOOSE to create them...be a MAN...FATHER.