The First

Is this supposed to be the 2008 Xanga.com for College students?
Its funny Ive been looking for an out like this to express my thoughts for a while. I tired to revive Xanga but that time has passed since Facebook. But this shall be my rEaLItY ChECk until something new pops!

I have a lot on my mind...these are continuous thoughts that will re-surface again and again...for they trouble me now, and quite possibly forever will.

-Love: I love. Quite quirky. I dont understand it. They made me like them and care about them...I had no intentions on doing so. But now I'm stuck...but, I like it.

-Death: It Strikes again...and again...once someone is born, someone is slain...Coping with the one death that has rocked the core of my being.

-Friendship: Does the truth eat at you when you are too afraid to use it? But when you do, does it eat at your friendship? Which is worse?

"I have a Friend...who has a Friend...and what had happened was..." It hurts to care more than those care for themselves. To want better for someone than they want for themselves. To see their opportunity wasted within their stupidity. Its always easy to see someone else's problems, I know. BUT, To do stupid things and put yourself in ridiculous situations and then look lost and wait to be rescued...then when tested to see if you learned from your mistake, you daringly do it again, laughing at the sight and the satisfaction that you have a pillow...known as a friend...to fall back on. Thats insulting. To not only down your self but to disrespect your friendship is outright sad. And so the truth is unveiled, and the truth is sometimes spilled out like an erupting volcano. Hot and piercing with each word and statement. Rude, even. Maybe if had the time to think it over...that truth possibly could have been told in a better way. Nethertheless the truth is out and it is relevant.

FAVE QUOTE: in the words of D.Saunders: "If you look good ,then you feel good...if you feel good, you play good...if you play good, they pay good...if they pay good, you live good"