So this thing called love

So this "love" topic keeps resurfacing its ugly head...

On FACEBOOK
I stated on my status that i was now "accepting applications, requirements: common sense ..." what a statement! The comments started flocking in...from those who thought that common sense was too much to ask and from those who claim to have what it takes..hell and those "applying" for the position in my inbox...I think that common sense is the best thing to ask for. Think about it, You should have the common sense not to lie, cheat, sabotage...etc. You should have the common sense to love, be honest, upfront, caring and worthy...etc.
I am 18...have i loved before? Sure have! Some would think that I am too young for such responsibility...the responsibility of loving to a point of uncondition.
I think about the fact that, my parents met at the age of 19...my one grandmother was married at the age of 19...by 19, my other grandmother was already married and working on her third child.
Is age still a factor?
What about levels of maturity??
College: do you find your future?

What happens when you fin someone, now...you know that they might be the best thing for you, but for some reason you are willing to risk that happily ever after and you give them up. Falling for that ever so "if its meant to be, it will happen" statement. Clearly there is something missing from the relationship that makes you want to search for someone else. Does it make it harder when the other person is so desperately for sure that they want you and only you?


l
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v
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what an emotion...makes you do crazy things

open ya MIND

this is a video of Jay-Zs performance at GLASTONBURY...dude from Oasis hating on Hip Hop and the fact that JAYZ was the headline act, in what was once an all ROCK festival ...get over it buddy...as P.DIDDY says, "Hip Hop is alive!"

the secret

Ever loved, but couldnt tell
couldnt yell
it
over a speak-ker
about her...him
didnt life seem dim?
felt robbed or shamed
with no one to blame
but u
for this love was taboo
and that was something you already knew
from the start... the beginning
so this life you are sinning
every time you sneak
for a peak
of what life could be
with her...him
damn life is grim
a kiss in the elevator
or what could of been
but wasnt...for there was hesitation
scared of the door opening
the secret opening
a can of worms
both lives scorn
so you wait
chance up for bait
then that date
arrived
when they were inside
we alone
done
now the games have begun
long talks til the morning
knowing damn well you gotta work
but youll make it work
all apart of the game
all things done in the dark
the looks noone else notices
but they say things in the dark
always come to light
maybe on a drunken night...

hahahah

i am...tired
8-5...not made for me
luke warm , frazzled
is this real life?
cant be
if so, i gotta make some moves
switch up the rules
like ricky ross
and become my own BOSS
yerp, thats a new plan
the future looks shiny
gotta take a stand

The First

Is this supposed to be the 2008 Xanga.com for College students?
Its funny Ive been looking for an out like this to express my thoughts for a while. I tired to revive Xanga but that time has passed since Facebook. But this shall be my rEaLItY ChECk until something new pops!

I have a lot on my mind...these are continuous thoughts that will re-surface again and again...for they trouble me now, and quite possibly forever will.

-Love: I love. Quite quirky. I dont understand it. They made me like them and care about them...I had no intentions on doing so. But now I'm stuck...but, I like it.

-Death: It Strikes again...and again...once someone is born, someone is slain...Coping with the one death that has rocked the core of my being.

-Friendship: Does the truth eat at you when you are too afraid to use it? But when you do, does it eat at your friendship? Which is worse?

"I have a Friend...who has a Friend...and what had happened was..." It hurts to care more than those care for themselves. To want better for someone than they want for themselves. To see their opportunity wasted within their stupidity. Its always easy to see someone else's problems, I know. BUT, To do stupid things and put yourself in ridiculous situations and then look lost and wait to be rescued...then when tested to see if you learned from your mistake, you daringly do it again, laughing at the sight and the satisfaction that you have a pillow...known as a friend...to fall back on. Thats insulting. To not only down your self but to disrespect your friendship is outright sad. And so the truth is unveiled, and the truth is sometimes spilled out like an erupting volcano. Hot and piercing with each word and statement. Rude, even. Maybe if had the time to think it over...that truth possibly could have been told in a better way. Nethertheless the truth is out and it is relevant.

FAVE QUOTE: in the words of D.Saunders: "If you look good ,then you feel good...if you feel good, you play good...if you play good, they pay good...if they pay good, you live good"