A statistic...

Ive never felt any more lost than i do now...lost in a statistic...another dead beat father leaves his "baby's mother" to raise HIS child ALONE. Why do men believe that they have less of the responsibility to raise their child they soo mindlessly created? Is it because they have less of an attachment? I guess carrying a little being inside of you for 9 months does create a strong unbreakable bond that a man will never know. But to chalk a parent/child bond up to a few checks that can not even break the bank it takes to raise a child is ridiculous!
MAN UP...

mood

i am totally annoyed with everything in my life. the people too. Im tired of being led on to believe one thing and then showed the next. I am flustered and confused. I want to be non-combative but the more annoyed i am, the more real and blut i become. I am stresse and tired. I havent had a good nights rest since before i came to school for RA training. RA Training there are both positives and negatives....met a potential...but i no longer have a life. my responsibility list has risen 10 fold....gosh! but i am prepared to take the challenge and run with it...even if i run away screaming.

-t

missing you

I miss you, its been too long
since we've talked, since weve shared our favorite songs
touching you, your scent
all things that I miss
I wish things were different
I wish you werent so far away
even though you really aren't
a phone call will do
just to hear your voice
to know that you miss me too
knowing that you miss me and you
maybe its for the better
maybe time will tell
until then my heart is in a jail cell
locked away with you, the only key holder
until you come back to me
until you set my heart free
now i guess ill have less distractions
less contractions
in my brain, over thinking
over dreaming
about the nonsense that comes along
from not getting along
it is sent from up above
what I speak of...it is LOVE




Its been a long time since I have been in a realtionship. I kind of forgot what it felt like to be soo in love. I wouldnt mind LOVE entering my life now. I think I am at a stable point in my life. How long do I have to wait to fall in love again?? HmMmMmm..